Friday, 28 September 2012

Amish Proverbs

                                         ~ Nothing is all wrong:even a clock that has
                                          stopped running is right twice a day ~

Wednesday, 26 September 2012

Tasks achieved ...

I managed to get done my tasks i set for myself today, my kitchen sink this morning after dishes were washed, i admit i left some dishes from last night as dinner was late and i had run out of steam, never mind i soon had it clean and shining.
I put two loads of laundry in the wash and managed to get them line dried before the rain came!
I set about painting the skirting board in the main bathroom, it only took me an hour, really i should have done this awhile ago. Our main bathroom is a grey/white colour, it looks abit stark in the photo but in time when i add accessories i will put more colour into it, i just love this bathroom.
Talking of bathrooms we needed a shelving unit for our ensuite to hold towels etc etc, i managed to find one for £7.50, it needed a good scrub as it was dirty but look at it now!!
My mum will be so proud of me, i have actually learnt how to fold towels properly so they sit nicely, this is thanks to my fellow blogger Katy (, i cannot stop folding now, flannels, tea towels, dish clothes! A closer look,
Our flannels are in the little white basket.
Yesterday while buying storage box's i bought these brillant plastic baskets, they come in a pack of three, i am using one of them to keep cleaning products for the bathrooms,
I am thankful for another productive day, i wont lie there was a couple of times i had to talk myself to get going, i am just thankful for another day with tasks in hand and no anxiety.x

Day 4...

This morning is day 4 without taking my antidepressants, last night was the first time i slept without taking an olanzapine (this is a tablet that helps you sleep). I slept through the night, but, tonight i shall take one as i think withdrawel from these one's should be done slowly, as i want to achieve my goals. So far i have been grateful that the tasks i have set myself i have been able to achieve.
I am truly taking each day at a time, but what keeps me strong is that i know in my mind that i do not want to take these tablets, i know i am ready to let them go, there is no fear attached with this, unlike past efforts.
I am thankful that i have the support of my doctor and my family.
This morning i shall make myself a cup of real coffee (  i only allow myself 1 cup a day), wash the breakfast dishes, put some laundry in the washing machine, later i hope to  paint my skirting board in the bathroom.
I will show pictures later today, i will ask God for strength as i go through my day, my life is very simple at the moment, it really goes from hour to hour.
I miss my mum, she gives me such strength and the wisest of words,but right now my sister needs her, they are on holiday in Italy, my sister was poorly before she went, suffering with exhaustion, hopfully she will come back rested.
I will update later, wishing you a lovely day x

Tuesday, 25 September 2012

Our little man...

I just wanted to write a quick post before i get ready for bed, thankfully i had a productive day, i had a lovely visit with zoe this morning.
I then went and bought some storage box's, we have a trunk full of photo's that need putting into storage as i need the space in the trunk for louies paper work.
I came home and made a sausage stew, i needed to make dinner early in the day as i could re-heat it this evening.
This evening was our lou lou man's naming ceremony at his school, we had to arrive at the school at 6pm which is normally meal time in our house.
Lou lou man is now in school all day, this is a picture of him in his school uniform,he looks so grown up.
Lou lou man waited his turn to light his candle and be accepted by the light of God in his school name.
Look at the concentration on his face, his mama was so emotional.
All the candles lit for the new children starting their school was beautiful x

Happy Birthday...

Today is our Zoe's birthday, she came into the world 28 years ago weighing 5lb 15oz!
She is a lovely person and like her sister's a wonderful daughter, we have been blessed.
Zoe also celebrates  one year today of sobriety, her nan has got her the AA token, zoe was not a big drinker but the problem was if she only had one drink it would make her feel ill for day's.
I so admire her to make this decision, she call's it a glass of poison. Her feelings are so strong to what alcohol is doing to so many, she would not even have a glass of wine with a meal.
Zoe is a wonderful mum, she is bringing her two babies up under the guidence of her catholic faith, the picture above is of zoe and lou lou man, he adores his mama!!
Well time to finish my coffee and run, i want to see zoe this morning before she goes to work, wishing you all a lovely day x

Monday, 24 September 2012

I know i do not normally write my blog twice in one day, but, i am kind of using my blog as abit of a journal at the moment.
This morning once breakfast dishes were cleared away i set about making louie a pear cake.
I needed to rearrange my bedroom in places to give me a touch more space, we needed a shelfing unit for our ensuite,so, i got showered and made a trip to the second hand shop.
I found this lovely wooden unit, it needed a good wash but was perfect to hold our towels and toiletries.
On my way home i called by the supermarket to get some food shopping, i felt alittle nervous but just told myself to concentrate on what i needed and head for home.
The pear cake was a success, dinner was peri peri chicken with creamed potatoes and green beans.
I am thankful that i acheived what i wanted to do, tomorrow is our Zoe's birthday, she will be 28!!!!!!!
My mum and my sister are on holiday in Italy, i am missing them.
I am ready for my comfy bed, good night x

and so i write...

It's 9.00 am this morning, i sit here with my cup of coffee, i have seen louie off to work, put my Beethoven piano music on( a present from my thoughtful sister).
Over the year's i have become a very private person, sometimes this has been a hinderance to me, other times it is a true blessing.
Over the last ten years i have suffered from anxiety, i have wrote about this from time to time, i have tried many antidepressants. Sometimes they have helped but i have often wondered given the side effects they give you if its replacing one set of emotions for another.
Last year after being diagnosed with stage 1 breast cancer my doctor put me on Mirtazapine 30 mg and olanzapine 5mg, 1 of each to be taken nightly.
I recently had an appointment with a consultant who deals with just medication, he was a funny old soul, he looked more like a farmer than a doctor, he was very outspoken using the minimum of words.  He told me i was not suffering from depression and years of using antidepressants was causing my nervousness.
I have given much thought about this, spoke with louie and my doctor and we have all agreed that coming off medication slowly, will, give me a true reading of myself.
I have decided with my doctor to do this slowly, i am going to also do this with the help of a diazepam when needed. I know these can become addicted for some people but my doctor has given me a capped dose daily if i should need them.
I also know i may have testing days, some days may have to be hour by hour and i am also feeling i am taking abit of a risk going public about this.
As i write now i have nearly 48 hours without a mirtazapine in my body.
I will pray that the good lord gives me strength on this journey and i would be gratefull for peoples prayers.
Please if anyone reading my blog has been or going on a similiar journey i would appreciate any words of wisdom. Thank you so much to those that read my blog. x

Tuesday, 18 September 2012

I have just found granola!
Apple crumble for tea
my station in the kitchen
i do not have much to say today so i thought i would say it with pictures x

Monday, 17 September 2012

Luke 6.37
Do not judge,and you will not be judged; do not condemn, and you will not be condemned.Forgive, and you will be forgiven; give,and it will be given to you.A good measure, pressed down, shaken together, running over, will be put into your lap; for the measure you give will be the measure you get back.

Wednesday, 12 September 2012

An evening at home...

I had a lovely day with our Jade, we went shopping i bought a few things for the house. I am trying to put in the finishing touches on a shoe string, we needed two lamp shades for the sitting area in the kitchen.I bought these today, they are plastic jewels but hanging up you would never know!
I lit the stove this afternoon as it got alittle chilly,
Slowly our room is coming together,its starting to feel cosy.This is our snug this evening.
From another angle,
I still need to hang pictures on the wall, this room has taken so long to become comfortable but we are getting there x

Tuesday, 11 September 2012

Random photo's...

Some random photo's of people i love...
I took this photo on the day our grandson was born, our lou lou man.
Our Eva
My lovlies
my dad
Our milly
Our jade with ian x

Sunday, 9 September 2012

Our Sunday ...

Louie and i had a simple breakfast this morning as we knew we had to finish sanding and varnishing the floor's, i, have to return the sanding machine to the hire place tomorrow morning as we have hired it on a weekend rate, weekday rate would be much more expensive.
This is louie first thing this morning putting the second coat of varnish on the floor, it will need three coat's before its finished, thankfully it is fast drying.
I decided to cut the grass and put washing on the line, this photo below is my washing line drying but look at the beautiful azure colour sky.
Once the grass was cut i noticed how invasive our neighbour's brambles had become in our garden, they were growing over the shed roof!
I decided to cut them back, i could not find any gloves that would give me some form of protection from the large thorn's. As careful as i could i cut them back but still the razor sharp thorn's pricked my finger's and caught hold of my clothing, i then thought about jesus on the cross, how he had thorn's around his head and had to carry his cross through the street's.
What pain and discomfort he must have been in, yet, he still thought we were all worth his suffering.
By the time i had finished my work in the garden louie was working on the hallway floor, which he is now varnishing as i write this post.
Lastly i have a favourite corner on our land that i use to sit and think, read,swing our grandchildren on the swing, but, since my healthscare last year i could not spend time in this little corner of the world. Today i sat there for awhile and noticed how neglected i have left it, yet i could almost hear the big old apple tree say how its waiting for me to come back. I am going to put this at the top of my priorities as soon as the house is back in order. x

Saturday, 8 September 2012

Stripping the floorboard's...

This morning i went to see my lovely sister who is poorly at the moment, i left louie moving furniture about to clear our sitting area around the stove, he was going to spend the day stripping the floorboard's, he also managed to put a coat of varnish on them.
we can not move the furniture back tonight as the floor needs another coat of varnish in the morning, look at my book's all over the sofa.
Do you see the moving mollie book at the bottom of the photo, i bought this for milly when she was alittle girl, she is now 17!!
My up side down kitchen!
I will make some kind of order tomorrow,but, for tonight i am tired, so i think i will take a book and go to bed very soon. x

Friday, 7 September 2012

A room to let...

With the economic situation as it is at the moment, louie and i have realised to make ends meet we have two options. 1) is to move home, downsize, this would mean a smaller home and not live in as nice an area as we do now.
2) Rent a room to student's from the language school that we have in the village, this would be bed,breakfast and an evening meal.
With much shall we, shall we not and i think we have driven our family mad with our constant doubting.
I have said a few prayer's along the way. Last week i put an offer on a house we looked at, the house inside was very comfortable, i would have houses opposite me and a large building development at the bottom of the garden (garden being very small).
This week the lady selling accepted our offer, this then made me realise just how lucky we are to live where we do. The children do not like it much as it is off the beaten track and very quite,but i think louie and i would struggle if we moved back in town.
So we have decided to have a go at renting a room. The student's arrive in the village on the 24 september so we have not got long to have the room ready.
The room we have chosen to rent is a good square size and has lovely big window's, our decorator is now giving it a lick of paint to freshen it up abit.

The colour is a  very light grey, some people shy away from grey but mixed with a nice colour in the accessorie's its a beautiful colour.
I love the large window's in this room,
another angle
I remember this room when we bought the house, nobody had used it for a few year's, the old window's were so rotten we were able to push a pen through the wooden frame's!!!!!!!!!!
My mum use to rent room's for a living and built up a very good reputation, i am so grateful for her advice, my mum and sister will give our little room an inspection once i have furnished it... oh i think the three of us think we are on some reality tv programme ha! x

Thursday, 6 September 2012

This truly does work...

A few week's back i booked myself a facial at my hairdresser's, it was suppose to be for today, earlier this week the postman kindly delivered our bank statement through the letter box, i opened it and soon enough realised there would be no facial for me anytime soon.
I alway's try to look after my skin, i come from ladie's that have very good skin, my lovely nan was 83 years old when she passed and her skin was like velvet, i never knew her to have a bath or use any beauty product's on her skin, she would strip wash every morning with soap and water.Nan's values were pre war, the eldest of 7 children, a very working class family, not much to go around, the fact that her mother was a wonderful cook saved them from going hungary. Nan was a young mother when the 2nd world war broke out and she never forgot the rationing and how they survived with so little.
My mum has lovely skin and thankfully i have been blessed with skin i am more than happy to have, but, just lately it's felt dry. I made a conscious effort to drink more water, not sit in the sun etc.
Well i looked in my new book Mrs Dunwoody and there she wrote a homemade facial treatment, a recipe that is year's old so i gave it a go!!
You chop up half a cupful of cucumber (i skinned mine first),
half a cup of advocado ( i scooped the soft flesh out),
2 tablespoon's of milk powder,
1 egg white.
I then put it altogether in the blender and gave it a good blitz, until i got a smooth paste.
Make sure it is blended well,
Now cover your face thickly as best as you can, it's alittle messy, tie your hair back off your face. Try and keep this on for 30 minute's, its truly amazing, you even get that tight feel that other face mask's gives you! Then wash with warm clean water and pat your face dry.I was impressed!!! x

Tuesday, 4 September 2012

Milly home for tea...

Tonight our milly came home for tea, i cooked her favourite...roast chicken!
I love cooking for milly and her boyfriend jake, i quickly took a picture of them eating their dinner, they did not even notice.
I just had to take a photo of the kitchen window by night showing the fairy lights
Tonight we seem to have a full house which is just the way i like it. x

Monday, 3 September 2012

I feel torn...

I have had two estate agent's to the house over the last couple of week's, they both gave me their sale's patter, i listened knowing what the next sentence would be (louie and i have bought and sold a few houses over the year's). This house is different, this one was suppose to be the dream, when we bought it within a year the world went into recession, prices went up on the material's, the building control rule's changed dramatically.
The soil in the garden and on the land is clay, everything grow's in it but it's back breaking work, the soil is so heavy!
Everytime i go to put the house up for sale something hold's me back, today i just took a couple of photo's, it was almost like the house was saying "stay awhile".
I do not know what to do, i am going to hand this over to my prayer's.
Our kitchen this morning with the door's wide open.
I just love my kitchen window, the fairy light's look pretty at night,
Down the garden to the gate,
through the gate is our land where i planned to plant an orchard
I guess i need more time before i make a decision. x