Saturday, 15 March 2014

I have taken a little dip...

I make no secret that i suffer with anxiety at times,mainly when i allow things to overwhelm me.
I take a daily tablet that just helps me take the edge of things, but just enough to help me learn how to manage day to day challenges. I do not suffer with depression or bipolar, anxiety is now becoming recognised as a condition of its own.
Well a few weeks back i thought i have been coping very well and thought i would stop taking my little tablet and see what was lurking without it, plus i do not like the weight gain.
After a couple of weeks i felt my morale dipping slightly and my chores seemed to take forever to do, i love keeping home and baking but i did not feel the enjoyment that i normally do.
This i believe was my warning, if i had only listened to myself and realised this was not the time to make such changes, but, no i pushed myself another couple of weeks feeling low, tearful and fretful.
Now this is the point that some say, this is what the tablets do to you but i now realise with the guidance of a trusted doctor there is no harm in taking something that gives you a helping hand.
I am slowly getting back on course, we have a 50th birthday party this evening, i am a little anixous but i know this is the anxiety playing tricks on me as anxiety likes to take you hostage.

Thursday, 6 March 2014

Birthday girl...

Monday was our Milly's 19th birthday, where does time go?
Saturday evening her two big sister's came over and stopped the night to spend the evening with her, it was lovely for us to have all the girls stay home with us.
look at them being silly!
Sunday louie and i took milly out for dinner to a turkish restaurant, the food was beautiful,
I think this is the birthday photo with her dad,
Monday (which was her birthday) was a calm day with a homemade birthday cake,
Just lately i have started my spring cleaning, each morning after i clean away breakfast dishes and then choose a kitchen appliance, i.e dishwasher,fridge, freezer , i pull it out clean it and the floor underneath.
My mrs meyers products arrived which i have to say are amazing at cleaning and they smell beautiful, what an incentive to clean!
I am also starting to clean up the area in the garden to create a gravel garden, but, we took our eye off the ball this winter and our garden area has become rather untidy!
I spent the afternoon tidying up, ready to plant bulbs and i have also bought a lilac tree, i hope to plant this saturday :)
This looks slightly better, i hope to make this part of our garden my labour of love this year, i hope to make it an area of healing tired minds, attracting insects that are so important to our enviroment.
I did read a tip that when you plant a rose bush, we are to plant a clove of garlic either side to keep away green fly!
Tomorrow holds some more cleaning and a run to the recycle tip to take away some of our unwanted garden rubbish. Wishing you all a happy friday x